Yeah, it’s been awhile since I’ve “blogged.” I’m not a huge fan of putting myself out there. I started to think that maybe blogging isn’t for me. Yet, it turns out that sometimes ya just need a space to share that can hold more than your average Facebook status. So here I am again.
The first part of the “where we are now” story that I want to share is:
We are growing our family!
Yeah I totally put it on FB… and I put it out there so soon that I made everyone wait as long as I did to find out the baby’s sex. But what I haven’t put out there is the backstory. So here goes.
I was pretty sure we were done having kids. I mean, our boys are basically elementary age, the parent-kid ratio is 1:1, we got dogs to help round out our family… Why on earth would we need to add a baby into this mix anymore? We were at that blissful no diapers, no strollers, no constant supervision, no feeding, no baby stage! I joined a MOPS group and literally looked around at the babies and toddlers and said “thank goodness we’re done with that!”
Can you believe this baby was planned?!
So I was browsing Facebook as I usually do and saw some adorable pictures of kids. An older brother dancing with his baby sister… A 3-generation family photo with so many siblings and grand babies… And I could not get the thought out of my head of how beautiful these slightly larger families were. So I called out to Husband that we should have another baby. Of course I was expecting the “yeah right” type response.
Turns out he actually thought about it and ended up saying yes.
(Pregnancy announcement found on Pinterest…)
And not ready. And all of a sudden incredibly aware of what that would mean for our current comfortable life. And then J and B’s baby years flashed in front of me – the sleep deprivation, the poop, the crying, the screaming, the…
That husband has NO idea what he is talking about! He was barely around for those baby years!
So I RAN to my Bible and journal and cried. Maybe not outwardly but definitely in my soul.
I pleaded with God and explained my doubts.
And with a still calm voice He spoke to my heart.
“Why now? Because now is the time.”
“Don’t be worried because I am going to be doing something with you and Husband during this time.”
“Don’t blame the pictures on Facebook… I used those pictures on Facebook.”
There you have it. That’s basically it because that’s where I left it. In His hands. It’s not what I would’ve necessarily chosen for myself but I absolutely believe that God works for the GOOD of those who love Him. (Romans 8:28 NIV)
I started telling people right away that we were planning to get pregnant and when we were pregnant. I wanted people to “Come and see what God has done…” (Psalm 66:5 NIV)
This isn’t to say I expect everything to be easy and perfect. I’m too much of a seasoned mom to think that. But when God says he is doing something, I can trust that. I’ll look for that. And I hope you’ll be able to see His handiworks too.